Spring~

We Finally reached April and the weather is so nice! ^^ I can totally feel the spring coming!~
and when spring is coming then it means all the spring animes is coming too!~



I have already started on many of the Aprils anime~ like Sekaiichi Hatsukoi, 30-sai no Hoken Taiiku, A channel, Nichijou, Maria Holic alive etc etc~
+ I'm looking so much forward to Ao no Exorcist and Kami nomi zo Shiru Sekai 2!~ :C they are not out yet but they should come out in April too!

I also managed to finished Hetalia both seasons.. since everybody talks about it and cosplay from it, then I thought why not, also because each episode is 4 minute without the sucking endings... seriously I HATE the endings... I could break my computer of bare annoyance from them... I dislike the opening too... and it is not something you can skip because it is too short! >C buuh!

Lately the wind has been pretty strong in Copenhagen, I almost fell over on my bike and while biking I had a hard time breathe... I even had to jump off and wheel my bike.. Strong wind + biking = Not a good idea.. but this weekend the weather has been so nice! I could go outside with a T-shirt without freezing~ That's so nice! I think my brother has been good this year! because Saturday was his birthday and the sun shone the entire day! or around evening it started to blow up. Not really bad though.

Yesterday we celebrated my brother's birthday~ That boy is so big now ;__; I remember him being 6 and cute now he is 15 and annoying lol~ JK~ He is okay, just like a brother should be~
I forgot to take pictures OTZ but there were a lot of food! The classic 5-6 Chinese dishes + Ice cream cake and chocolate cake! nom nom nom~ CAKE! 8D My brother, my grand cousin and I had so much fun while playing Sims~ I don't know why but we always end up playing Sims and well it's so RANDOM! xD in a good way somehow~

At the moment I'm sick, I'm lying in my bed with 39,8 degrees fever! T___T so there is nothing to do.. I even had to skip school.. I just got my first absence this year.. Truely sucks! -__- Hopefully I won't fall behind! but I'm feeling so much better now so I think I will be able to go to school tomorrow!

pheew Random entry is Random~ I don't really have anything to blog about! :C my life is pretty boring lol~ I'll go play some Piano now~ Until next time~ （￣ー￣)ﾉ~~

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Mood:	Sick! :C
Listening to:	Soufu - Kimi ni todoke Soundtrack
Weather:	Clear
Watching:	Nichijou
Addiction:	Starry Sky

Scared to live

I won’t be surprised if I die tomorrow, but I’m really afraid of leaving my house after thinking about some things a while ago. Last Thursday a 19 years old guy was shot and killed not far from where I live, actually only 3 minutes from my place, and it was in my own neighbourhood. So I’m really scared if the murders would come again to kill someone innocent. I just imagined that what if they would rape me because I’m a girl and then kill me?.. and what if they didn’t killed me but just raped me? How would I be able to keep on living? Actually I was wondering if people would ask me if I could remember the rapist’s face, and if I could, would I dare to tell the police?

To be honest I don’t think I would, I would be afraid of them trying to finding me and actually kill me. Not even if the police offered some kind of protection I wouldn’t dare.. also because I like to go to Parkour, Japanese lessons and other things I do in my spare time, and with protection I don’t think I would be able to leave the house after 5 or 6 pm. Would my life just end like that then? And what if I get killed? Will all my dreams and hopes just get broken in a blink of the eye? I don’t really know. And I’m scared to find out, I just hope things will settle/relax a bit.. because I like the night a lot, and I like to be able to take a night walk under the starry sky ★ and with the things which just happened my mom would NEVER allow it D:

I know I usually say F*ck my life, just kill me now, shoot me etc etc. complaining about my life and that people should just go ahead and kill me now, I have had enough, but well not a surprise I actually don’t mean those things, I love my life and pretty much where I am now. My friends are supportive, my classmates understand our differences, most of my teachers are nice and really good at teaching~ So I’m pretty happy where I am now. Also I have got my own room, still under process though but it’s here and well it’s big and I can sit on the floor doing homework!~ I’m so happy.

Or there is something which still bugs me, my mother and I just don’t seem to understand each other, we fight a lot and have problems speaking normally to each other. Once again we had a fight, and well I almost started to cry again and I just felt that I wanted to scream. My mom wants us to move to Århus so badly! She wants us to go live with her boyfriend in his house, it’s not because I dislike him (anymore) but Århus is just far away, I don’t have as many friends there, my high school is wonderful and I don’t want to change to another, I like my parkour teachers and teammates, I don’t want new ones. I know Copenhagen really well and know where all the good shops are, Århus is almost a maze for me. I just don’t like the entire idea of Århus. But my mom just always seems to get upset whenever she comes home and want us to move over there because it’s so much better bla bla bla.. but it’s just not the same! No matter how you look at it, Århus will never be Copenhagen and I will never feel as home in Århus as I do here right now in Copenhagen. I just don’t want to move.. ;__; but I think my mother has kinda given up now, but well I’ll see how it is tomorrow.. I have a headache now D: (my internet was confiscated yesterday, because my mom was mad at me... so well.. I could first post this now.. ^^;)

Sry for another ranting post with no pictures, and I don’t really know what kind of pictures I can post in there.. ;__; but here is a picture which always makes me happy~

Jonghyun is so cute! ;w; ♥ and the little kid is so adorable! >w< ♥ I want to hug both of them tightly~

and One piece, Katekyo hitman reborn and Fairy tail also always touch me a lot and makes me smile or cry in a good way~ The new chapters was incredible, as always I can't wait for the next chapter ♥

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Things I'll never say

So many things I'd like to say
I just don't know, I just don't know
How many times I tried today
To let it show, I just don't know

So many things - Amy Diamond

The last few days I have had so many things on my mind. I have been so confused and a lot of thoughts have been running through my head. I've feel really down and really happy and there have been things I didn't feel like I could say. Everything has been like a universe for me, big, mysterious and unknown.

The past few days have been pretty stressing and I have been thinking about what to do with my life. Now and after high school I know that shouldn't be something to be bothered about now, but I just keep thinking what if I chose wrong? then I have to start all over with night school.. and do I really want to study about Japan or is Korea more my thing now? then why did I chose math/physics? my world just doesn't make sense anymore ;__; maybe I should just take a looong loong break from whatever I don't know. Even when I looked into the mirror today I couldn't even recognize my own face. I haven't changed really much but it looked so weird, just not like me. It wasn't my hair or clothes it was the same but just something about the mirror's reflection wasn't right. Maybe I was dreaming? but well I'm sitting here now, so if it was a dream I would wake up now wouldn't I? I don't know, maybe, maybe not. Am I thinking too much?




Well back to more positive vibes~ Last friday I went out shopping with Laura afternoon and spent the evening with Tea around my place~ As always I forgot my camera so I don't have many pictures sadly D: but I bought two dresses without hangers~ one with stars and another with dots~ I hope the wetter gets better so I can go wear them outside without freezing to death~ I also got the opportunity to buy the book: Modern Fashion illustrations~ I haven't been inspired for some time, but looking through the book kind of gave me the will to go sew again, so I'm working on a sewing project, not cosplay through... I'm not skilled enough for that xD but I'm working on getting better! ^^b
Tea just came home from Hong kong and she told me she had bought me a souvenir and you never guess what it was~ Korilakkuma phone strap~ It's so cute and she got a rilakkuma for herself we are matching ♥



Then Sunday afternoon I went to visit tea at her house. As always her room is so incredible AWESOME I could stay there FOREVER! ♥ We played a bit dress up and I got to try on her clothes and she put some make up on me~ It was pretty WOWISH, I looked like a totally different person.. really... I felt Like Tsukimi from Kuragehime~ going from Plain nerd to pretty make up asian lol.. and to be honest I became a bit Jellyfish geek... I guess I'm too addicted to KurageHime xD Haha, I love to dress up, I didn't do it when I was younger because I was tomboy.. played with snails and cars and climbing the trees~ but after the dressing up I thought about changing my appearance a bit. Because I usually NEVER do anything to my hair, it's just boring and straight... so I thought about a haircut~


Before make up

After make up

with curls




something like short in the top and long in the bottom~ still keeping my bang though ♥ and I thought about wearing eyeliner~ but I don't know if I should wear it on the waterline or over the lashes.. any recommendations? and please tell me what you think please~? ^^b



OMG Looong Entry is so looong x'D well I'm sorry for the lack of pictures and for a long entry, I actually feel a lot better after writing all this really~ ^^ Lol time now is current: 23:52... I started writing 10:39 I know I'm slowly at blogging ;__; I'm sorry...

and just like so many others I am going to Okashii tomorrow not so nervous as I was in the beginning and my nightmare kinda faded out, even though I'm still fearing it will happen someday ;___; just so tell short about what it was about:

I'll get this message on Facebook where an anonymous write that

I'm Fake

I should just disappear

no one likes me

I'm annoying

people only hang out with me out of sympathy

people only respond to me because they don't want to be rude

people only talk to me because they want to hurt me even though they dislike me

everyone would be better off without me

I take other peoples friends

I'm sticking

I'm spongeíng on people

after the message I'll just sit at a table at svscon by myself. Thinking about the message, people I know will pass by me without greeting me, everytime I try to call out to anyone they will just glare at me, and then proceed walking. I'll just sit there all alone, no one will come, I'll start to cry and hide my face in my sleeves but then actually one person go to my table, and that is dun dun dun Kristine with MLFA behind her♥ they aren't saying anything but just standing there looking at me smiling. then the dream ends..

I know I have friends who loves me and want to be with me, but well dreams are dreams right? even though they can be so realistic and I was actually a bit scared that would be how Okashii would be like, but I'm not nervous anymore. I know I'll do fine! ^^ I'm really excited to go, so anyone going~ See you there~~ ♥


Funny gif just for Kristine♥

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C U R R E N T

Mood:	Bored =__=
Listening to:	My physics teacher...
Weather:	Cloudy greyish
Doing:	spacing and stalking formspring~