20130817 ★ Unlucky lvl MAX

Today I went to work after some time and WOAH I could definitely feel that I haven't been to work for a while. Working in a bakery and needing to wake up at 5 AM is so hard and difficult. I'm totally thinking of quitting  but I'm so bad at denying and doing things which could dissatisfy people. I tried to quit once but that ended up with me just going on holiday instead 

Yesterday I went to Killing's "birthday" party which was super fun and enjoyable~  It was nice seeing some people I haven't seen for almost half a year, especially because I didn't go to Jpopcon this year or I wasn't there for very long. I even had to leave early because of yes the stupid work!!  also I really dislike some of my colleagues and the worst part is that I haven't even met them. I just had a bad experience with one of them telling me on paper I didn't do my work properly and she was acting all high and mighty  Oh well I'm gonna quit anyway also because it is too far away.

Outfit from Killing's Bday~ 

_{Some days I just look like a Fish}

But Today I was so UNLUCKY I think it is the most unlucky day in my entire life.  Firstly it started raining when I had to get to work at 5 AM.. so I had to take the bus... which I of course missed. So I had to wait 20 minutes and got late for work. Then a lot of the customers were so rude and ill-mannered. I'm so surprised about Danes sometimes. How can they just walk in and pretend they owe it all and then they even scold me for the bread not being the same size as last time or the price rose. I'm not baker! OR the owner. So please stop scolding me -sobs- some of the elderly men are so scary. I never dare to say anything I just smile and nod pretending everything is perfect  When I finally finished work a bit earlier, two guys walked in after closing time begged me to let them buy something which resulted in I had to redo the dishes and recount the coffers. Usually I am prepared for last minute buyers who never come.. but of all days they had to come it had to be today. So I got free from work later than usually which just sucked since I had to meet up with Melanie to buy things to cosplay.. Well when I thought things would start to get nicer my bag strap broke.. it didn't just broke but the metal part cracked  and because I didn't bike to work I had to carry this Idontevenknowhowheavy bag of mine. I had to hug-carry it. It was so awkward  Even the people gave me weird stares. I then met up with Melanie and we went for pig-coloured bandage hunt and we went into 3-4 Matas and NONE of them had it.  (ಠ益ಠ) I might go to the drugstore on Monday but ARGH.. and then the bus just drove as we arrived to the bus stop. Though the worst of all My camera broke When my bag broke I dropped my bag on the ground which probably damaged it and because the bag was broken it was so inconvenient to carry all my things. The Juice, bread, extra clothes from the cold morning etc. It was a chaos to carry it all at once and I kept dropping things but when I got out of the bus almost home, of all the things I had to drop I dropped the Camera and it seems like the inner screen cracked.. and I bet it is super expensive to get it fixed. Luckily my mom didn't scold or blamed me for breaking the camera. When I was younger she would get so angry and I was so happy to hear her voice after all the things which had happened with my grandfather and after this day I could use a hug from my mom telling me it all would be okay.  Though I have till she is coming back from China. 

Even though I said I would post WIP pictures of my cosplay I can't because of the broken Camera.. I'm so sorry but actually something good happened today ~ While walking down the shopping street we encountered Yul Anderson. I think he is an American free time pianist but I just really like his music and he kind of cheered me up  my refound interest for Piano instrumentals and playing the piano has been rather huge. I'm sad I don't owe a better Keyboard so I'm thinking of save up money to buy one, but first I have to figure out if I should fix or buy a new Camera and what model if the second case.  

_{In case you are curious, yes I did ask before taking the picture}

Oh Right I didn't finish my cosplay cause well I suck at sewing and some unwanted surprises came when I had to sew the last part! Also we had some problems and trouble figuring out if we wanted to paint or sew the numbers on... The fabric might not be the most paint friendly but we just want to do it as precise as possible but I don't know anymore.. I feel like I put too much effort into this dammit costume.. also the sleeves and the collar are bullying me  I hope we manage to finish on time~ Now have some Danish Bakery Eye candy~ 

 

Mood: TOTALLY DOWN	Music: Splash free - STYLE FIVE

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18 ★ years

Today is my 18th birthday~ I can't really believe that I'm already 18. Somewhere in my mind I'm still 12 and just started going to conventions. Times fly by so fast and things change even though we don't even notice it. I even got all the 'spam' letters from Banks and the government telling me I'm allowed to vote etc. etc. It is so weird~

I celebrated my birthday the 9th of June with some of the friends I have made from conventions and my family. It was more a cosy get together with food and dancing than actually party hard with alcohol. I was so happy to see so many of my friends. Both those who live nearby and those who live a bit farther. I think and hope everyone had a good time and I was so happy to see how well everyone had fun together. I also got so many wonderful present and I can't even describe how happy it made me feel celebrating my birthday with everyone. I almost wanted to cry. So again thank you everyone for coming and for the lovely, inspiring and amazing presents!



I especially want to thank my family for their support so far for everything. Sometimes you are annoying and sometimes you are lovely but no matter what I will always love you, because we are family~

My Outfit from my birthday


This years birthday has been so wonderful~ Even though it has been raining all day~ I like rain though, as long as I'm inside and not getting soaked from it. It is so refreshing and relaxing. Like it is washing all my pain and worries away but Thank you everyone for the nice and sweet messages I have got on Facebook, Skype, SMS, E-mail, letters and Tumblr ;__; I am so happy and I love you all

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Now that I have turned 18 I'm also starting to wonder a bit about what to do with my life. I have many hobbies and interest and I don't know how I am going to make time for them all. I feel like I'm wasting my time doing nothing. I'm not even sure what I want to do after high school and I'm in my third and last year after the summer break. Of course I have the break to think about it and yes I have one year after that too, but as it seems right now I don't have any clues at all. I don't know if I should take up my Piano lessons again, Start dancing or maybe even practice singing again. I also still consider if I should learn Japanese or Korean or just stick with Chinese and Cantonese on the site. I also want to be able to draw and take pictures to reflect my thought and feelings. I want to be able to capture memories and feelings in videos and in pictures and of course I want to be able to sew something cute and pretty and maybe eventually make a cosplay I can show off proudly. Origami has also been really inspiring and same goes with other kind of paper craft. I also enjoy watching movies, anime and dramas and from time to time reading a book or two. Baking and cooking are also worth spending time on, I especially love to decorate desserts and make my hair pretty. Make up has not always been my thing but when I see make up artist I feel their beauty and get inspired to do make up myself, even though I know I tend to be too lazy to put it on and remove it afterwards. I love to design things and write advanced codes and design pretty web layouts. Making funny gifs and writing odd stories are also things which I love to do. Sometimes I also miss being scout, sleeping in the nature, feel the nature and explore it. Solve mysteries, sending secret codes and testing my knowledge on Sherlock Holmes. Finding my inner psychologist and philosopher trying to figure out the brain and the human thought. Exploring the stars and the mysteries of the planets and the enormous Universe. Travelling in time to the wonders of SCI-FI and new technologies to the past unsolved mysteries and old myth and folk tales. Learning new cultures and old traditions as well as the different animals and plant from all over the world. Listening to music from all over the world from old to new times, and looking at the different styles and fashion from old times to present. So many things I want to do, so many things I want to know and so many things I want to explore but a day only had 24 hours and a life only have a limited number of days. I don't know where to start and I don't know how to begin. please tell me to see what time brings and just follow the flow, but I just feel I'm wasting my time waiting and flowing.. and in one year can you really achieve so many things? I wonder. I think I better stop thinking about it, I could go on forever and ever and ever, walking around in circles in this mess I made up in my own mind~
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BTW; I (Trini) dyed my hair brown or maybe it is more purpleish or that is what some of my friends say haha~ but now I think I will be going back to studying ;__;

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» Thiefs? GO DIE.

I just went to my leisure club to make the present to my friend for her upcoming birthday. I have been thinking of this idea for a long time and finally pushed myself together to make it, so I was so proud of myself after I finished it. I won't post a picture before after her birthday because who knows.. she might be reading my blog. but while I was there I kept having the feeling that I had forgot something and I sure had. because my wallet lay in my jacket pocket, and usually I wouldn't think about it because usually my leisure club is a place I feel safe and have the feeling that I can trust people. we all know each other somehow someone better than other but it will always be like that. When I went to my jacket later on to get my money because I had to pay for my present, someone had opened my pocket and my wallet and my money was gone.. meaning someone stole my 200 DDK ;___; I was so sad the rest of the night/evening. and when I told my mom she sounded so disappointed even though I knew she wasn't.. I also got the feeling that I'm irresponsible, I can't even hold on to 200 DDK.. my self confidence just went down with 10 point.. I know, don't cry over wasted milk but it's just the chock that it was my leisure club.. oh well i think I just have to forget it..

I really admire people who are positive thinkers.. those who only focus on the positive site... ;__; I hope I will be able too as well some day

but one bad thing sholdn't beat me up.. sooo~~
earlier I was pretty bored.. so after my shower I began doing manicure and pedicure which turned out SO UGLY.. so instead of freaking out I drew how I felt


yes boredom can make you do random things such like drawing on your toes... ♥

and when I got home from school totally beat up and AGAIN forgetting to go to the eye check, of course I called and got another agreement but then I went home to dumplings, corn and watermelone *__* totally delicious~


I'm not the biggest fan of boiled dumplings so yeah these are fried dumplings with Soya sauce~ looks kinda gross?.. xD but taste soo good ♥ Om nom nom~

That was kinda my day~

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Mood:
Listening to: JBF - music box
Weather: Dark and cold ;_;
Consuming: Water
Gaming: -
Reading: Hjerteflimmer - Like a rolling stone - Finished
Watching: NHK ni yokoso - Finished
Addicted to: Suuuunfloooowers~
Doing: Chatting with Sa-chan~ ♥