Sunday, 24 June 2012

18 years

Today is my 18th birthday~ I can't really believe that I'm already 18. Somewhere in my mind I'm still 12 and just started going to conventions. Times fly by so fast and things change even though we don't even notice it. I even got all the 'spam' letters from Banks and the government telling me I'm allowed to vote etc. etc. It is so weird~

I celebrated my birthday the 9th of June with some of the friends I have made from conventions and my family. It was more a cosy get together with food and dancing than actually party hard with alcohol. I was so happy to see so many of my friends. Both those who live nearby and those who live a bit farther. I think and hope everyone had a good time and I was so happy to see how well everyone had fun together. I also got so many wonderful present and I can't even describe how happy it made me feel celebrating my birthday with everyone. I almost wanted to cry. So again thank you everyone for coming and for the lovely, inspiring and amazing presents!

I especially want to thank my family for their support so far for everything. Sometimes you are annoying and sometimes you are lovely but no matter what I will always love you, because we are family~

My Outfit from my birthday

This years birthday has been so wonderful~ Even though it has been raining all day~ I like rain though, as long as I'm inside and not getting soaked from it. It is so refreshing and relaxing. Like it is washing all my pain and worries away but Thank you everyone for the nice and sweet messages I have got on Facebook, Skype, SMS, E-mail, letters and Tumblr ;__; I am so happy and I love you all

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Now that I have turned 18 I'm also starting to wonder a bit about what to do with my life. I have many hobbies and interest and I don't know how I am going to make time for them all. I feel like I'm wasting my time doing nothing. I'm not even sure what I want to do after high school and I'm in my third and last year after the summer break. Of course I have the break to think about it and yes I have one year after that too, but as it seems right now I don't have any clues at all. I don't know if I should take up my Piano lessons again, Start dancing or maybe even practice singing again. I also still consider if I should learn Japanese or Korean or just stick with Chinese and Cantonese on the site. I also want to be able to draw and take pictures to reflect my thought and feelings. I want to be able to capture memories and feelings in videos and in pictures and of course I want to be able to sew something cute and pretty and maybe eventually make a cosplay I can show off proudly. Origami has also been really inspiring and same goes with other kind of paper craft. I also enjoy watching movies, anime and dramas and from time to time reading a book or two. Baking and cooking are also worth spending time on, I especially love to decorate desserts and make my hair pretty. Make up has not always been my thing but when I see make up artist I feel their beauty and get inspired to do make up myself, even though I know I tend to be too lazy to put it on and remove it afterwards. I love to design things and write advanced codes and design pretty web layouts. Making funny gifs and writing odd stories are also things which I love to do. Sometimes I also miss being scout, sleeping in the nature, feel the nature and explore it. Solve mysteries, sending secret codes and testing my knowledge on Sherlock Holmes. Finding my inner psychologist and philosopher trying to figure out the brain and the human thought. Exploring the stars and the mysteries of the planets and the enormous Universe. Travelling in time to the wonders of SCI-FI and new technologies to the past unsolved mysteries and old myth and folk tales. Learning new cultures and old traditions as well as the different animals and plant from all over the world. Listening to music from all over the world from old to new times, and looking at the different styles and fashion from old times to present. So many things I want to do, so many things I want to know and so many things I want to explore but a day only had 24 hours and a life only have a limited number of days. I don't know where to start and I don't know how to begin. please tell me to see what time brings and just follow the flow, but I just feel I'm wasting my time waiting and flowing.. and in one year can you really achieve so many things? I wonder. I think I better stop thinking about it, I could go on forever and ever and ever, walking around in circles in this mess I made up in my own mind~
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BTW; I (Trini) dyed my hair brown or maybe it is more purpleish or that is what some of my friends say haha~ but now I think I will be going back to studying ;__;

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