Long Weekend

I tried to be strong
I tried to ignore this feeling
I tried to smile no matter what you would tell me
I tried to support you but failed
With other words I failed as a friend

Well I have a long weekend WOOHOO and that is why I can blog! C: Today and tomorrow I don't have school so I can sit at home and do nothing~ or like I do now, bloog~

Today I started out waking up really late! 8D with a big headache and with a sore throat.. I think about to catch a cold. but well I'm feeling better now so I'm gonna be Okay!~



Later I watched The princess and the frog, I really wanted to see watch it in the cinema but I didn't got to because of studies and no time and such and before I knew it, the English version was out of the cinema! D:

but I found out a guy from my school had it and borrowed it! Yaay V(≧∇≦)V I also borrowed Beauty and the Beast so I watched that one too (not today though.. xD) I thought the movie was really touching and when ******* died! :C I started to cry... and the Shadowman is a really awesome villain~ He is cool and smart and the tricks he does are pwnsome! 8D I also found him a bit charming haha! xD + He can do magic how cool is that?! 8D and his clothes are cool~ xD

I also kinda learned something. You don't always have to get all you want, if just you have what you need then you can be happy. Some touching words. No life is complete with only material stuff, the only thing you need is love~ *put lyrics to the song: all you need is love here* xD I also really like the ending song by Ne-Yo~ Never knew I needed~ I just like Ne-yo in general~ so I couldn't turn off my tv when the movie was finished.. I just had to listen to the final end.. xD but I think it's worth being called a Classic Disney movie~ and it's recommended~





I also watched the last 2 episodes of Kimi ni Todoke 2nd season! ;w; I cried so much! It's not really melancholic but more awww cuteish and well I cry to that kind of stuff too~

To say it shortly it's about Kuronuma Sawako, a girl who looks like the girl from the ring (?) Sadako, and is therefore called that. No one really seams to figure out that her name is SAWAKO which means something cheerful, and not sadako, like the girl from the ring. Everyone is scared of her and apologize to her because they think she can summon ghost and kill if you look into her eyes for more than 3 seconds.. Sawako is really shy and does her best to greet everyone in the morning and work hard to get friends. but because she is threated like that she has a hard time understanding what people think, and don't really know how to express herself. She falls in love with the class popular and shining guy Kazekaya, who is the only person on the entire school who threat her normally. but she doesn't know she is in love, and think it's only admiration. Later on she becomes friends with Yano and Chizuru, and they help her getting closer to Kazehaya and open up so she can socialize more. Then we just follow Sawakos life, how she face Kazehaya's 'fanclub', how she changes and learn to understand her and other peoples feelings.

I liked the ending, but I only guess it's because I already read it in the manga and knows what is going to happen afterwards. It's not a bad ending and GOD HEARD MY PRAYER they are not going to be married! xD Haha, I think shoujo anime where the pairing are getting married are *BAADR* xD and well if you like Shoujo anime with A LOT OF LOVE then it's not this one to watch, there is a lot of love, but you end up being impatient! xD but if you like it sugar sweet then it's the one. ^^ It's also about friendship, slice of life and you know typical shoujo~ The first season is 25 episodes and second is 12. The end and op songs are really sweet too, Love the way they are animated/drawn on/made~

and just to pick into my private life, I would say this picture describes my feelings best right now!
Picture taken from -Xintao.tumblr.com

So many twisted feelings between friends and love... I don't know where I stand anymore~ but don't worry I'm still cheerful and I don't cry~ I just have to take a break from everything and do something else to keep my mind busy~

Bye for now gonna work on cosplay~ and if I remember it then I'll take some picturs~


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Mood:	Confused
Weather:	Rain
Food&Drink:	Melon~
Reading:	DRRR Fanfiction

All songs end Black

Haunted in my own dreams, is this a signal or just a warning for the future?　
　
The title is random, or actually the reason behind it is because I dreamt about it lol..

but well lately I have been haunted in my dreams. I experience thing which scare me, and I am terrified to do things in my everyday life (yes I know I get scared easily). I just want to dream my old random dreams ;___;! and I'm considering if it is even possible for me to be psychic.....

Other than that I went to a party at my school last Friday. The Theme was Shrovetide, in Denmark is it called 'Fastelavn' it's a danish tradition where people dress up in costumes and hit a barrel, in the old days there were a real cat inside, but today it's mostly candy~ but at my school it was condoms ( * ^)oo(^ *)

and of course I was dressed up in a costume, even though it failed a bit and I don't think people could see what I was dressed up as! D:



I was doll~ or more precise I was lolita inspired doll~ but my lack of make up did I couldn't do Michelle Phan's Gothic lolita or Lady gaga tutorial! >_< and then my white eye liner broke. I felt like screaming ;___; no more bright looking eyes to me! OTZ There wasn't that many at the party but I had fun~ talking to people is always fun! and as always NO dancing to me, but I promised some of the girls I would definitely do it next time! >//> I'm embarrassed to... but a promise is a promise! ^^ and as mentioned above there were barrels~ but because all the strong guys was in front I didn't got to hit it even once OTZ That makes me a bit sad... I really wanted to D:

and then I stayed after the party to clean up! I was home at 3:30 and that mean I slept my entire Saturday away! ;___; and I used my entire Sunday on my German homework and figured out I had done it all wrong so now I have to start over... at the moment I hate my life! LOL

but I'm looking forward to the easter break! I don't have time to relax but I'm going to hang out with my friends and just have a great time!

Nothing else is happening in my life, and I have a lot of homework, so I'm not sure if I get to blog that much.. but I'll try if I can write small entries once in a while~ ^^


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Mood:	Tired
Listening to:	Dolls - Kagamine Rin
Doing:	German homework

Geek for the weekend

Life is like riding a bicycle, to keep your balance you must keep movingAlbert Einstein

This weekend I was the WORST GEEK ever! 8D I mean seriously I arrived at my dads about 5 p.m. friday. First I was liek: I'm gonna write a lot of literature and then I'll draw the request from Punk-pirate13 and finally draw my Deviantart ID.. but this is what really happened:

Friday
When I arrived, the first thing I did what go on the computer and watch all the series which I'm following at the moment. Those are:

Starry Sky ep. 13

Fairy Tail ep. 60-70 (just noticed ep. 71 is released ♥

Kimi ni Todoke season 2 ep. 5-9

Bakuman ep. 18-23 (another ep. is released here too D: damn slow releases..)

Rio Rainbow Gate ep. 9-11


Yep 23 episodes a day/night! 8D and I got to draw a bit on my request but not much. How nerdy huh? I almost didn't even moved from the coach.. I feel a bit embarrassed and if it's not all..

saturday
Due to sleeping too late I woke up around 11 o'clock and started watching anime again! OTZ..

I finished Eden of the East (Higashi no Eden) all 11 episodes and 2 movies~ ♥



I really really loved it! *O* ♥ Seriously I couldn't make myself stop when I first started!~ The plot is just awesome and I like the characters a lot~ especially Kazuomi Hirasawa~

Summary:
On November 22, 2010 ten missiles strike Japan. However, this unprecedented terrorist act, later to be called as "Careless Monday," does not result in any apparent victims, and is soon forgotten by almost everyone. Then, 3 months later... Saki Morimi is a young woman currently in the United States of America on her graduation trip. But just when she is in front of the White House, Washington DC, she gets into trouble, and only the unexpected intervention of one of her fellow countrymen saves her. However, this man, who introduces himself as Akira Takizawa, is a complete mystery. He appears to have lost his memory. and he is stark naked, except for the gun he holds in one hand, and the mobile phone he's holding with the other hand. A phone that is charged with 8,200,000,000 yen in digital cash.
From AniDB

I'm also up to date with all the shounen mangas I'm currently reading~~ ^^
Those are:

Katekyo Hitman Reborn

One piece

Soul Eater

Fairy Tail

Ao no Exorcist

and I also watched the last 10 episodes I missed on Kaichou wa Maid-sama. So now that anime is finished as well ♥ And I read up to date with the manga as well~ currently chapters: 58 now waiting for chapters..



Then I finsihed colouring the request WOOHOO and drawing the sucking background~ but still not done with it..

Then I went totally in a Seiyuu mood! Like looking up all the seiyuss of my favourite characters and I have totally decided my favourite ones~ Hehe~ how much of a Fangirl can you become? x'D

I just love Daisuke Ono, Hiroshi kamiya, Jun Fukuyama, Yuichi Nakamura, Miyuki Sawashiro, Junichi suwabe and Nobuhiko Okamoto~ ♥

and Yes, this was another day with no exercise at all, just ALMOST sitting on the couch the entire day OTZ OTZ OTZ but I actually went pretty early to bed~

Sunday
to my surprise I woke up even later than saturday?! ... I went to bed earlier but W000t?.. oh well the first thing I did was finishing my drawing ♥ but due to laziness I first uploaded the drawing yesterday OTZ...


Dreaming - Punk-pirate13 by ~agentmanga on deviantART

and after finishing the drawing I read manga OTZ.. So now I'm starting on Stardust Wink by Haruta Nana~ She is one of my favourite mangakas~ She have written among other things: Saboten no himitsu, Chocolate cosmos, Love Berrish, Samurai Darling etc etc.



I always end up feeling really fat when I'm at my dads, because well I don't really do much exercise because his apartment isn't that big. and I tend to Fangirl a lot.. and watch a lot of anime/read a lot of manga. Like when I'm there I just have to finished at least one serie.. I think it's really unhealthy for me, but well I did cycle to and from him.. not that it's enough exercise for 3 days but well it's a start and I have told myself NO MORE anime watching next time I go there.. so that is my goal for next time I visit my dad!~ ^^b

Right now I'm totally death T_____T doing Strength practice at Parkour really kills your muscles.. It hurts everywhere ;___; but then I hope I have burnt some of the weight I gained during the weekend!~ ^^;; hehe and somehow I can't wait to go on wednesday~

btw I'm a bit unsure whenever I should blog about the manga and animes I finish, also because well I finish a lot of manga and animes and usually end up watching/reading on-going ones and I can't really tell about it before it ends. Would it be interesting? Please tell me your opinion~


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C U R R E N T

Mood:	Mental: HAPPY, Physical: DEATH
Listening to:	Simple Plan - Untitled
Weather:	Sunshine
Food&Drink:	WaterMelon
Reading:	Homework
Doing:	Homework

Scared to live

I won’t be surprised if I die tomorrow, but I’m really afraid of leaving my house after thinking about some things a while ago. Last Thursday a 19 years old guy was shot and killed not far from where I live, actually only 3 minutes from my place, and it was in my own neighbourhood. So I’m really scared if the murders would come again to kill someone innocent. I just imagined that what if they would rape me because I’m a girl and then kill me?.. and what if they didn’t killed me but just raped me? How would I be able to keep on living? Actually I was wondering if people would ask me if I could remember the rapist’s face, and if I could, would I dare to tell the police?

To be honest I don’t think I would, I would be afraid of them trying to finding me and actually kill me. Not even if the police offered some kind of protection I wouldn’t dare.. also because I like to go to Parkour, Japanese lessons and other things I do in my spare time, and with protection I don’t think I would be able to leave the house after 5 or 6 pm. Would my life just end like that then? And what if I get killed? Will all my dreams and hopes just get broken in a blink of the eye? I don’t really know. And I’m scared to find out, I just hope things will settle/relax a bit.. because I like the night a lot, and I like to be able to take a night walk under the starry sky ★ and with the things which just happened my mom would NEVER allow it D:

I know I usually say F*ck my life, just kill me now, shoot me etc etc. complaining about my life and that people should just go ahead and kill me now, I have had enough, but well not a surprise I actually don’t mean those things, I love my life and pretty much where I am now. My friends are supportive, my classmates understand our differences, most of my teachers are nice and really good at teaching~ So I’m pretty happy where I am now. Also I have got my own room, still under process though but it’s here and well it’s big and I can sit on the floor doing homework!~ I’m so happy.

Or there is something which still bugs me, my mother and I just don’t seem to understand each other, we fight a lot and have problems speaking normally to each other. Once again we had a fight, and well I almost started to cry again and I just felt that I wanted to scream. My mom wants us to move to Århus so badly! She wants us to go live with her boyfriend in his house, it’s not because I dislike him (anymore) but Århus is just far away, I don’t have as many friends there, my high school is wonderful and I don’t want to change to another, I like my parkour teachers and teammates, I don’t want new ones. I know Copenhagen really well and know where all the good shops are, Århus is almost a maze for me. I just don’t like the entire idea of Århus. But my mom just always seems to get upset whenever she comes home and want us to move over there because it’s so much better bla bla bla.. but it’s just not the same! No matter how you look at it, Århus will never be Copenhagen and I will never feel as home in Århus as I do here right now in Copenhagen. I just don’t want to move.. ;__; but I think my mother has kinda given up now, but well I’ll see how it is tomorrow.. I have a headache now D: (my internet was confiscated yesterday, because my mom was mad at me... so well.. I could first post this now.. ^^;)

Sry for another ranting post with no pictures, and I don’t really know what kind of pictures I can post in there.. ;__; but here is a picture which always makes me happy~

Jonghyun is so cute! ;w; ♥ and the little kid is so adorable! >w< ♥ I want to hug both of them tightly~

and One piece, Katekyo hitman reborn and Fairy tail also always touch me a lot and makes me smile or cry in a good way~ The new chapters was incredible, as always I can't wait for the next chapter ♥

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★ OkashiiCon ★

So this weekend I went to Malmö in sweden to participate in Okashiicon, my first swedish con ever!~ I was really nervous and well I didn't think I would survive, but well hanging out with awesome people can totally cheer you up and make all your worries go away!~

Friday I was dressed in normal clothes~


and Saturday I borrowed Line's Sawako cosplay. I really want to sew one myself because Sawako is just so cute and adorable~

picture taken by Sabrina

picture taken by Line

I had an amazing weekend, meeting new friends, getting closer to old ones and getting to know people better who I didn't knew that well~ The con was only OK though, because there wasn't so many panels or events, and I felt like I was eating all the time! Haha~ but well when you spend time with your friends, time just fly away~ The weather was also really nice, so if the con went boring you could always go out in town shopping. I think Malmö is a really pretty town, I love the buildings and I'm a bit sad I didn't got to spend some more time there ;___; but hopefully I will go again sometime soon also because I miss my swedish friends~ actually i miss everyone and the good mood~ Look forward to see you all again~ Thaank for an amazing Con ♥



Pictures taken by Ali Jehad


♥
Sabrina why are you so damn cute ♥

Pictures taken by Line









picture taken by Sheila Navarrete Hernandez

outsider not in kigurumi! *sad face* :C ♥

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Listening to:	Yiruma - Kiss the rain
Doing:	homework

Things I'll never say

So many things I'd like to say
I just don't know, I just don't know
How many times I tried today
To let it show, I just don't know

So many things - Amy Diamond

The last few days I have had so many things on my mind. I have been so confused and a lot of thoughts have been running through my head. I've feel really down and really happy and there have been things I didn't feel like I could say. Everything has been like a universe for me, big, mysterious and unknown.

The past few days have been pretty stressing and I have been thinking about what to do with my life. Now and after high school I know that shouldn't be something to be bothered about now, but I just keep thinking what if I chose wrong? then I have to start all over with night school.. and do I really want to study about Japan or is Korea more my thing now? then why did I chose math/physics? my world just doesn't make sense anymore ;__; maybe I should just take a looong loong break from whatever I don't know. Even when I looked into the mirror today I couldn't even recognize my own face. I haven't changed really much but it looked so weird, just not like me. It wasn't my hair or clothes it was the same but just something about the mirror's reflection wasn't right. Maybe I was dreaming? but well I'm sitting here now, so if it was a dream I would wake up now wouldn't I? I don't know, maybe, maybe not. Am I thinking too much?




Well back to more positive vibes~ Last friday I went out shopping with Laura afternoon and spent the evening with Tea around my place~ As always I forgot my camera so I don't have many pictures sadly D: but I bought two dresses without hangers~ one with stars and another with dots~ I hope the wetter gets better so I can go wear them outside without freezing to death~ I also got the opportunity to buy the book: Modern Fashion illustrations~ I haven't been inspired for some time, but looking through the book kind of gave me the will to go sew again, so I'm working on a sewing project, not cosplay through... I'm not skilled enough for that xD but I'm working on getting better! ^^b
Tea just came home from Hong kong and she told me she had bought me a souvenir and you never guess what it was~ Korilakkuma phone strap~ It's so cute and she got a rilakkuma for herself we are matching ♥



Then Sunday afternoon I went to visit tea at her house. As always her room is so incredible AWESOME I could stay there FOREVER! ♥ We played a bit dress up and I got to try on her clothes and she put some make up on me~ It was pretty WOWISH, I looked like a totally different person.. really... I felt Like Tsukimi from Kuragehime~ going from Plain nerd to pretty make up asian lol.. and to be honest I became a bit Jellyfish geek... I guess I'm too addicted to KurageHime xD Haha, I love to dress up, I didn't do it when I was younger because I was tomboy.. played with snails and cars and climbing the trees~ but after the dressing up I thought about changing my appearance a bit. Because I usually NEVER do anything to my hair, it's just boring and straight... so I thought about a haircut~


Before make up

After make up

with curls




something like short in the top and long in the bottom~ still keeping my bang though ♥ and I thought about wearing eyeliner~ but I don't know if I should wear it on the waterline or over the lashes.. any recommendations? and please tell me what you think please~? ^^b



OMG Looong Entry is so looong x'D well I'm sorry for the lack of pictures and for a long entry, I actually feel a lot better after writing all this really~ ^^ Lol time now is current: 23:52... I started writing 10:39 I know I'm slowly at blogging ;__; I'm sorry...

and just like so many others I am going to Okashii tomorrow not so nervous as I was in the beginning and my nightmare kinda faded out, even though I'm still fearing it will happen someday ;___; just so tell short about what it was about:

I'll get this message on Facebook where an anonymous write that

I'm Fake

I should just disappear

no one likes me

I'm annoying

people only hang out with me out of sympathy

people only respond to me because they don't want to be rude

people only talk to me because they want to hurt me even though they dislike me

everyone would be better off without me

I take other peoples friends

I'm sticking

I'm spongeíng on people

after the message I'll just sit at a table at svscon by myself. Thinking about the message, people I know will pass by me without greeting me, everytime I try to call out to anyone they will just glare at me, and then proceed walking. I'll just sit there all alone, no one will come, I'll start to cry and hide my face in my sleeves but then actually one person go to my table, and that is dun dun dun Kristine with MLFA behind her♥ they aren't saying anything but just standing there looking at me smiling. then the dream ends..

I know I have friends who loves me and want to be with me, but well dreams are dreams right? even though they can be so realistic and I was actually a bit scared that would be how Okashii would be like, but I'm not nervous anymore. I know I'll do fine! ^^ I'm really excited to go, so anyone going~ See you there~~ ♥


Funny gif just for Kristine♥

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Mood:	Bored =__=
Listening to:	My physics teacher...
Weather:	Cloudy greyish
Doing:	spacing and stalking formspring~